sometimes I just say things, or get angry b/c I feel like its needed. Like I have a great reason... and though some people might not see it, I do and I want it justified. I feel like I am always justifying everyone whenever they do something that is just not rational. And whenever I'm not rational its a huge deal. I didnt have a good weekend, but everyones napping now so I am venting. The house is a dump and has been this way for about a week. The laundry needs caught up the kitchen needs a good scrub down, atleast the trash is tended to right? I know it will be better, theres always Monday??? Ugh that makes it better. I also need a job horribly soon, and if I dont get one we will drowned in bills. SW is doing a fine job of keeping our heads afloat but we can only float for so long, if I dont do something to help we will drown. Anyways I am going to bounce hope I hear from you all soon! Love you all bye!

We had company tonight, and I had alot of fun. Keisha and I are getting really close and I am glad to have a best friend. I mean I know Steven and Reg are my BEST FRIENDS. But to have a girl who likes to do the same shit as I do and is funny and likes to drink. She's cool. I miss my Mommy. She wants us to move to atlanta and honestly if I can get the kids in preschool there and carter a good baby sitter. Anyhow my mathew was here tonight. He loves me and i love him. Mathew was the one that made me feel like part of stevens family. We have always been close. I say, "Mathew do you WUB me?" and he goes "of course sense day 1" lol it makes me feel good.my steven is ready for bed so I am going to get ready for bed. Have a nice night! Later xoxox Tara

tonights my last night w/ sw and carter and austin for 8 days. I'm nervous about the flight, and I am nervous abuot how maddie will behave for 6 hours having to sit on my lap on a crowded airplane. Nerves always get the best of me. Hopefully the plain isnt that full so I will have some room to move about. Anyways I am going to go. I still have to get my stuff together. Hope everyones night is going well! xoxox Tara

Steven and I put the kids to be and curled up infront of the tv to watch the notebook. It was completely great. We laughed and cried, and told each other how much we loved each other! He's so sad that I'm leaving! I wish I could help his agony! I love him so much and I will miss him and my babies. Maddelyn keeps asking why they cant come with us! I wish I had an anwser. If steven could get off work we could proably do it! I gotta go love you all night!

We are having yet another weekend party at the house of Hard Rock! I so wish... LoL. But everyones coming over so I thought I would leave all you party bloggers w/ a little party of your own right here at Tinks house! So here you go! No drinking and dialing or drink and emailing!