listening to nirvana had friends over tonight. maddie has an appt for preschool the 25th. I need to make her an appt for the other preschool. I tanned today in the bed. well burned. it fucking sucks to burn. but I will go back to friday. drinking a little. I like my job. steven is talking about going in the army. how can I tell him no. I am scared to death about him going I dont want to be alone and I dont want anything to happen to him. but if it something he wants to do I cant say no. I love him. I dont have much to write about. I love my friends. I need to shave my legs... is that weird to write about? yea I guess it is. lol I love zack and keisha.. its so weird and I think steven is still a little like freaked out by them. but they are freakin funny and awesome. anyhow I am going to go... I am going to look up this army stuff. xoxox Tara

I guess I havent been around lately. Sometimes I just dont have ANYTHING to write about, and sometimes I am to busy. I finally got a job! YaY me! I am a server at a pizza place. I know its not much but I like the people I work with and I love serving. They seem to like me and I think I've been doing a really good job. The women my manager is gosspier! She loves to talk about her family and other people. I love to listen too! Sometimes i have a question though and I dont want to interrupt. But it having someone to talk to is nice. Today was a good day though. Steven and me cleaned house when we got home. The I made a pot of chili after I took a nap. Keisha and Zack were supose to come out but they didnt. Its not a big deal though because I had fun with my family. I let the babies stay up late. We played dolls and trucks. Then when I put them to bed I read them a story If you give a mouse a cookie. I read it twice, then we said our prayers twice. (Maddie has this thing about 2 times for EVERYTHING) lol. Then we said another prayer for our soliders and people in the family who are having trouble. I love my family so much and it was nice to have such a pleasant day. When I'm pleasant and I talk calmly to austin he responds to me so well. Thank you momma it was a great lesson indeed! I know I will not always beable to control my temper but knowing I have a problem is the first step in recovery RIGHT? Austin and Steven are playing video games! He had a tough week but has been making a real effort to do better! He cleaned his room so steven is letting him stay up a little bit later to play his videos games... I love this. I love my life my little family even my little house... Things couldnt get more perfect! Tomorrow if the weather permits it I am going to take my kids to the park! I hope everyone else is having a wonderful day week Life! Remember to smile! Tara