It wont let me in the chatroom. I just get a gray screen! help me fix it PLEASE IM me on yahoo at Cutest_civic_baby2007

When I watch people I cant help but wonder what their life might be like. I have to wonder is life suppose to be this hard. Why should we have to suffer.. I understand we have to overcome things in life. Why should you always have to be overcoming something. Why cant life just be easy for a while. Tears come so often lately. You shouldnt have tears in your eyes everyday. When do I get a chance to relax and enjoy life. Why does it have to be so fucking difficult. I hate being so down. I know everyone has hard times, but should life really always be this hard. Its not just me and steven or being broke. Even when I was living the "high life" in atlanta. I had to get my own place and I found someone looking for a roommate and moved in w/ them but I didn't get along w/ them and moved out. This happen 3 times. Finally my manager Michelle (a lesbian who hated me) asks, "If you have moved in w/ 3 different people and with in a week moved out b/c of a disagreement did you ever think it wasnt them... Its You." Maybe it is me. I mean how is it that almost everyone dislikes me. It cant be EVERYONE else all the time, right??? so it has to be me sometimes.

so today is my day off and I want to clean up the house for Steven. He's been so sweet lately. Gosh there really is a fine line between love and hate. I love steven but sometimes he makes me so mad I dont know what keeps me from walking out that door. Its the little things that keep me w/ him. No one can hurt me when I am with him. No one can talk about me. He tells me I dont care if you're wrong or right, you're mine and you have a right to say what you want. LoL which isn't always a good thing. He says sometimes I'm a lot of drama. I dont mean to be, I guess I am just emotional. anyways I am gonna go. I have to clean for my baby!

So my daughter Maddelyn is 2 and visiting my sister in Virginia! Well my nephew is about 4 and so funny. Well Maddie had an accident and my sister was changing her. So Nicolas was like, "eww mommy maddie is nasty." Brandy (my sister) says, "Why NeeNee, you shouldnt say that about Maddie." He goes, "She pees out her butt!" then he points, "Look her pee is gone and now her butt goes all the way around!" I thought that was the funniest story and wanted to share it... time to go post comments! xoxox

My little boy is sleeping like an angel! I'm bored...

Cute kitty hunh?