Everyone who wrote to give me some advice and support about visiting my grandmother, thank you so much. You all are so helpful and I do value every peice of advice which I recieve! When reg first introduced me to this place i didnt think I would really like it here, but came for her, b/c well, I love her! I really do love this place though. I've enjoyed the friends i've made on here. I may not talk alot to you or leave messages or even bm you. But I do read alot of you and love alot of what you write. Even if I give you a hard time... Thats my personality I guess! Anyhow I am going to attempt my poetry tonight. If nothing comes of it please dont be mad. I've not written in years, and I am not awesome at it. Just ok. Not even ok... just plain JANE. or plain Tara lol!
Family news, my family bought the plain ticket today. So I will be leaving out of here the 12th and I wont be back for a week. I will stop by while in Va but proably not a whole lot. Maddelyn starts cheerleading in April. Isnt that so sweet! She is going to look so adorable in her little cheerleading outfit. SW has picked up on something called Guitaroke (like Karaoke but w/ the guitar) he kicks so much ass at it. He looks dreamy playing and singin! *licks lip* mmm mmm good. OH GOSH did I say that on here! Oh well whats done is done! LOL So I am going to bounce around and try to write my first poem. And come up w/ a clever name for the new poetry blog! Muahz! have a nice night my lovelys! xoxox Tara

I've been thinking of opening up a new blog, a poetry blog. I've always been very interested in poetry and writting. I am not very good at it, but I enjoy doing it... I like to write about my kids my life, love... I fail off the diet wagon but I jumped back on it.. Steven wants me to lose the weight and be a stripper.. Just like a man. LoL. I wouldnt want to be a stripper not b/c I am not comfortable w/ my body hell I'd jump up right now and strip but because I cant dance really, plus those shoes are huge! My kids are so perfect. All of them. All of them special in there own ways. I want to bond more w/ my step son so any of you step moms or anyone that has some advice I would love to hear it! I am flying back home to virginia this week for my grandmothers birthday she's been sick. I love going back home, but I am kind of hoping something goes wrong... I dont know what to say to grandma everyone says its not a big deal, but its a huge deal. She has cancer and she is going to die... She knows this and I know this... What if she just looks so sick and I dont know what to say. What if I burst into tears and make it worst... I'm so scared. It seems silly to be scared about but I really have only 2 fears in life. Death and my children getting kidnapped. They arent even fears they are more like Phobias.. I know I dont post many pictures on here. But I do have a myspace account with pictures of me and my kids and my family. If you would like to see that just ask. Anyhow, I am going to go! I love you all and I hope everything is great in everyone else's life! Love you all! Tara xoxox

sooooo I havent been on alot this weekend sorry for those who read my blog regularly, and those of you who dont well you all suck anyways! that reminds me I need to update my BM so I can see when these people update so I can READ my favorite blogs. Anyways I had a rocking weekend! SW and I are really becoming close w/ these people who have been coming over. Saturday night we drank alot, a whole bunch LOT (I had a baby sitter just to let ya'll know, thank you REG I love you ) So I am really happy to have a tight group of friends. I've always had a really close knit group of friends and to be ripped of that and finally get it back feels great. I am one of those people who need people close to me! so I feel really relived! Anyways SW and I had a great weekend. No fighting all love! and I do love him so very much. I know we fight but who dont! wow look at that grammar I am going to leave it just to show how country I am becoming or drunk! Ok so you all want to know about the weekend! We drank sang karaoke and had a fire. We laughed so hard told stories. I feel really close to these people and I am starting to care about them! I hope they are the real deal when it comes to friends! I can not take another let down. I had a great time w/ great memories those! Anyways I want to bounce to some blogs and make some updates to my BM list! love you guys hope you're weekend was as great as mine!

Tonight we had a really good night. Not a party. Our friend stopped by with her new baby and we sat around talked about life and the past our friends now! We sang karaoke it was fun! The weather was great I know carter has a cough but he wanted to go outside so bad! I slapped a cap and a sweater on him and let him go out! Not a jacket I figured getting him to hot would just make him sicker. Stevens wants to have a total family day tomorrow I am so excited! Anyways I am going to go! Bounce around leave some comments! so watch out!

the kids have a horrible cough. SW and I had a big fight tonight. I want to go make up w/ him but I want him to be sorry and come make up w/ me. I really dont know what to do... Carter is awake. I know he doesnt feel well... I gave him a sippy cup. I should proably just go to bed anyways... I guess thats the only solution there is! Goodnight out there!