I love to start things, but hardly ever finish them. I have great intentions, and I really want to do these things... but i guess fear gets the best of me. I have a horrible fear of failing. I've applied to atleast 3 different colleges. I pass the test to get in days before I am supose to attend I decide the timing is bad. Even though the timing is fine. I really want to be better. I want to go to school. What if I cant do it. What if I'm not as smart as i think and just end up getting sw and me into a bunch of debt? What a horrible fear. I really dont know what to do! I need a push. I need to be reminded I only have so much time. I have to do this now. Like dieting. If we stop by mcdonalds and no one says Tara remember you diet dear I'll get a double cheese burger. I feel like I've ruined my diet then and quit. I have to be pushed and forced. I am going to try really hard this time but feel free to stop by and say hey fat ass no more cheese burgers k dear? lol. or Get off of blog stream and go study dumbass! I'll love you for it! I'll let you know how it goes!