My boss was sick today so I didnt have to worry about her nagging me half to death. Though my co-workers have not let up on calling me "dumb girl" I work w/ idiotic men and if you make one mistake or ask one LAME question u are labeled Dumb Girl. I am not dumb. Well his daughter came in tonight, and let me just be clear, She is not the smartest bulb in the box. And she doesnt seem to like her father. She's like did he tell you he had kids. I was like No he doesnt talk to me unless its to tell me I'm dumb. Or to tell bad sex jokes. Not funny just gross. Apparently the last girl who complained got fired a week later. They say it wasnt for complaining she was late or something but I dont think thats the reason. I figured just keep to myself and get my work done. The rude cooks they said I was a bad server today. I am NOT a bad server. I get flustered easily, and I forget what I am supose to be doing. Thats b/c I have so much going on in my head though. SW is talkin about going into the army Austin is getting ready to go back to Tn, and summer is almost here and winter clothes have not been put away. Anyhow I think I am going to move Maddie and Carter into austins room while he is away this summer and try to get some order back to my life. Not that he is the disorder. Its just easier to get my room in order w/out a 2 and 3 year old in there. I can not wait till I get my bigger house! My shoulder is so sore. Its like I have a charlie horse in it. I asked steven to rub it and it felt like he was pinching it at the top. Is that whats it supose to feel like? Is that what it feels like when I rub him, if so I am SO SORRY! It does not feel nice. So as far as friends goes, we havent been hangin w/ keisha and ziggy lately. they just havent been around. We went to her graduation party last friday but didnt stay very long, we went to hangout w/ another couple that are our age. We played video games and drank, alot. Anyhow... I think we are going to go to a truck pull or something tomorrow night. WTF is a truck pull is my question. Sounds like something silly to me. Nothing fun. But we are trying to do a bunch of stuff w/ austin b/c this is are last weekend as a family for a whole month. I do think it will be relaxing maybe I can gain some control over my other 2 which have taken on some very nasty habbits. Telling me no and screaming at the top of their lungs and hitting. I tried telling them that hands are for patty cake and not fot hitting like the nanny from nanny 911. My kids didnt take to it like the kids on tv did though. Everything is so much more difficult in real life. I watch those shows and I'm like wow that would really work but when I try it on mine they are like haha smack! Am I rambling? I guess I am... So I havent heard any more news on the whole wedding thing. He wont let me know yes or no, it all depends on the army, but I get to get my wedding rings! OMG YAY! I have picked out the most WONDERFUL ring. Its sooooooooooooooooo cute! Its a princess cut and looks huge and its only like 258 dollars. Isnt that great? Well anyways I am going to go. I am sorry for going on like a crazy person. and if this has a million grammar mistakes I am so sorry. I should reread it but if I do I will just delete a bunch of stuff. And I love the stuff that flows and thats real. Its what I'm feeling right now and thats what I want to remember when I read this 4 years from now. How I was feeling right at this moment. xoxox Tara