Life has been good. Friday I was under the impression steven and I were really getting married, but we arent. Atleast not right now. I think I want to get my lip peirced I would really like it. I use to have it done but my mom went crazy and made me take it out. I just dont find it very motherly. So I proably wont do it. I miss my mom and I miss my sister. My sister is back in tennessee. This is the first time I've ever been apart from both of them for such a long period of time. its hard. I want to go home really bad sometimes, but at the same time there are things here I dont want to leave. When I was growing up I cant remember living anywhere for more then a few months and mitchell would screw it up and we would have to live w/ aunt bonnie or terry ann. Aunt bonnie the smart one had bought a house in the country. It was on its own private islane it felt like. Water wrapped all around her property not the drive way though, but when in it rained hard the drive way would flood. We would play hard all day. Puppies were always being born in the basement, and we were crowded but never unwanted or unwelcomed. There was such a closeness and love. I am still very close w/ my cousins and aunts and uncles. I think its b/c we lived together so much. Anyhow I remember staying there the most when I was a kid, and the stability I felt. It was safe. we werent going to be uprooted and have to move as soon as you're comfortable. Thats what I want my kids to have complete stability, not having to move as soon as there room is set up, and here I can give that to them, I am not so sure in tennessee they can have that. So I guess I am going to have to go. I'm going to watch some tv and wait for steven to come home. Good night. xoxox Tara