sw and I have been getting along really well. I like my job. Even though last couple days I've been pmsing. Basically 2 days before and the whole week during this time of the month I am moody tired and a bitch. Well Linda (the owner) had bitten off more then she could chew (which she does often) see when we have parties she likes to take the whole group for herself and then bitch because she cant keep up and she blaims this on everyone else. I usually bite my tounge but I had a hard time doing it. I think my attitude my get me in a little bit of trouble. I am going to have a talk with them though. If I am going to work there I dont want to be cursed at. I work damn hard and I am to polite to be talked to like that and if that bitch has a problem with me she needs to say something and stop mumbling about it under her breath like a little bitch. (see thats the pms coming out) As for mother life. Austin is in Tennessee I think I mentioned that. He called the other day but i was exausted I didnt even get a chance to talk with him b/c I just fail right back to sleep, but from what I heard he sounded so very sad, and that makes me sad. So I am going to call him tomorrow its my day off. I think I have anger issues too. I get so mad and just scream. I know I dont handle stress well b/c when I was pregnant w/ Maddelyn (my first pregnancy) I would have horrible anxiety/panic attacks that would make me tense up where I would tense up like every muscle wanted to explode sometimes I would cry or scream and on 2 occasions I got violent. I think b/c I am holding so much in and not talking about it enough that I am beginning to get that anxiety back. I talk on here but there are things I cant come out and say on here. I want to talk to these people and let them know what is bothering me, but I dont want anyone mad at me nor do I want anyones feelings hurt. I have a hard time w/ comfrontation. But I have to do something b/c it is making me a very unpleasant person. Even SW has picked up something is wrong. He is not one of those guys who notice things like that. and he asked me if I was depressed or something. I am not depressed I am just stressed. We are behind on our car payment and I hate getting reminded of that ALL the time. I know I am behind I think about it contstantly. But I want to get rid of my car, yes its a good little car but we have ran it so long w/ out keeping up on the things that have to be done to it that its just to the point where I am done w/ it. The starter is going out on it the tires need to be replaced the breaks need to be replaced along w/ the roaders (I dont know what the fuck they are but I know I ruined them) And the muffler was hanging so I took a really thick zip tie and put it back up (all by myself too) well its plastic so when it snaps its going to come down hard and I am afraid it will do alot of damage. So we really need to trade this car in before it falls apart. And its doing this weird thing where it will break down and not start in random places. Steven says its the battery but I know thats not true b/c when my battery quits working I lose all my radio stations I have programed and that hasnt happen. I think its the starter going out on it b/c thats what the nissan use to do. The other I was driving and the breaks locked up and it wouldnt do anything and it slipped out of gear. I could go on w/ a list of trouble I've been having w/ my "good" little car. GOD i miss the honda. Anyways I guess I had more to write about then what I thought. I am sorry to sound so bitchy but only 3 more days and this will be over with and I will be little miss mary fucking sunshine agian. lol. have a nice week everyone! dont let your bosses walk all over you every now and then say do you have a fucking problem with me. xoxox Tara